Yesterday I had to go to Kirklin to get my monthly menopause shot. The shot that put me into and is keeping me in menopause - about 10 years earlier than expected. It was not a good day. I had to wait for 2 hours to spend 5 minutes with the nurse giving me my shot. It hurt. A two hour wait in a waiting room full of sad people. And then getting a shot that HURTS. I cried when she gave me the shot. And she looked so sad and said, "I'm sorry I hurt you." And I whispered, "I know".
I want to see an empty infusion/chemo waiting room. Empty because we're all well.
I really want to go camping and sit for a long while inhaling the fresh air only trees can produce.
I want to sink underwater at a pool and feel the refreshment of cool water.
I want to take another hike. Maybe a shorter one this time. And in cooler weather.
I feel so tired.
But I'll keep fighting.