Four years cancer free. Another milestone. A quiet spring with good results so far. Sometimes I'd like to forget the cancer ever happened. But these 6-month appointments and check-ups don't let me. When a friend dies of breast cancer, I can't forget. My heart aches, I cry, I fear, I question, I'm here.

Glad I have a stable desk job (and a stable desk). But right now, after battling with excel sheets, I wish I was anywhere but behind a desk. Give me blue skies directly above my head (not out the window). Give me creek water up to my waist and dragonflies landing on my head. Give me the scent of spring and the breeze of summer.